I’m working on my magnum opus using the sounds I recorded on my commutes… however, the only version I have of Fruity Loops, which I’m using to make the beats, is a demo which doesn’t let you save anything. However, it does let you export sounds. Thus, I have one shot to make a nice loop and then export it into another program where I can put it all together. Actually, there’s another program in the middle where you edit the sounds, and then arrange all the loops in another one. That’s a total of 3 programs just to make this thing. I’ve avoided obsessing over the minutiae this time, unlike when I was doing the Nine Inch Nails remix that caused me to work for 3 hours on 5 seconds of it. This time I’m going to get the whole contour of the piece and then fill in the details. Hopefully I will actually finish something this time!

I have this problem where I get bogged down in the details of a project, then I don’t finish it. In fact, out of all the lame-ass electronic composition-y things I’ve done, I don’t think I’ve finished a single one. They are all sitting in little folders on my computer waiting for me to someday put the finishing touches on them. It’s the same way with a ton of essays and short-story things.

Because of this, instead of writing a book, I’ve decided to write a books of false starts and ideas for books. I’ve been writing down all my dumb ideas and then illustrating them for my own entertainment. At least it keeps me amused. Time is running out to do something spectacular with my life… however, I haven’t resigned myself to being a complete loser forever yet. I know I still have something creative to finish or start that will be my Big Thing, and then I can go back to being a sales clerk in a dead-end job at least satisfied that I got to finish the thing I was meant to. I just wish I knew what that was. Argh.